My Update!

Hello.... so, everyone must really hate me cause I haven't been on this thing since February. But to be fair I've been pretty busy! School really hit down hard third quarter and continued into fourth. My AP test was... interesting. I swear, I lost weight in the few weeks before the test cause all I did was study! And even after the test I didn't feel like I did very well! Ah well. It's all over now!

I've also had Orchestra both at school and RMO. School Orchestra has had Orchestra Tour to New York, region and state festivals, and our annual Orchestra banquet. RMO... not very exciting. Our last concert (well the last one I went to) was the Concerto Night. *snore, snore, snore!* I wasn't able to make it to the last one because I was at Girl's State.

Dating has been good! I've now been on a total of nine dates all together. Since Sweethearts though... there was seeing 'Singing in the Rain' with Jordan, Morp with Austin, Homemade Pizza with Colton, a movie with Joe, the Spontaneous Dance with Colton, and then this last week I went hiking with Joe. So the dating... it's healthy... that's all I can say.

But above all, the best thing I've done for the past few months is going to Girl's State! I loved it! I'm normally really shy around people I don't really know but I was put with 27 girls from all over Utah -hadn't seen one in my life!- and the very first night of being there we stayed up till midnight and suprisingly I did a lot of the talking and was the center of attention a lot of the time! After spending a week with those girls I learned that I didn't have to live up to a level of expectation to talk to someone or be their friend, but that by being myself -my own embarassing, loud, ...and sometimes eccentric self- I am can serve another as an equal human being with no selfish expectations. And I can count on others to think likewise. I think we get so confused in this world! So caught up in our natual human emotions of jealousy, hatred, and even love that we forget to be the person God intended us to be!

Another thing I learned at Girl's State was what it really ment to be patriotic! I mean I thought I was! I love our country! But now I have open eyes to the amazing liberties our ancestors fought for, that people in other corners of the world are STILL fighting for! And sadly, there are many in this noble country that cease to have the faith and devotion to America that I have gained a new appreciation for! It's like a disease that has affected the mind set of many of America's population! There is not enough respect and gratitude in this country at the present moment toward those men who sacrficed lives, time, families, and everything they had for what our country stands for!

So yah! Girl's State was AMAZING!! For all you younger girls: After Junior year apply to go! You will love it! It was one of the most memorable weeks of my life! Graduation was terrible though! I told myself I wasn't going to cry and of course every picture Grandma Lewis took of me proved me wrong! But I loved all the girls in my city, and I still keep in touch with a lot of them! They're some of my best friends!

Anyway, this is a very long post! But like I've said I haven't been here for a while! I'll try to keep up, but it's gets really hard sometimes so cut some slack and keep loving me! I've got to make sure I have all my cross country stuff ready for tomorrow morning so... TTFN! -tah tah for now!-