Andy is still at his summer boot camp and the little crazy monkey hasn't even written yet! He's been gone like two, maybe three weeks and I haven't gotten one letter! It's starting to really make me nervous! I really miss him! He's like the twin brother I never had and right now he's in some camp being torn to pieces by a Drill Sargent! I'm really protective and just the thought makes me angry that he got into this in the first place! But that's not fair. I know he's doing the right thing for him right now, but I really hope he realizes what a demanding lifestyle it is! Anyway, I really do love the kid and I really wish him the best of luck. Perhaps I just need buck up and remember that I shouldn't let my worry cloud what I know is absolutely right.
At least I'm holding up better than Rachel though! She's counting down the days until he comes home! Okay, I'm not THAT worried! But it is probably harder for her because she still has feelings for him. Anyway, my thoughts are just everywhere today so I thought I'd vent a little here.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
My Poetry!
So... here's the deal! I'm normally very protective of my poetry and I'll only WILLINGLY let my mother and sometimes Jessica read it! So... this is kind of a big step for me, but if I want to write when I get older I getter get stop dreading it now!
Forgotten and Lovely World by Courtney
Aw, what a wonder is the world!
For this is my beloved home!
To look upon thy rolling hills,
To recieve in solice and to be alone!
There sings the nightingale,
And there blooms the flower!
Time for you stands strangely still
Yet, tis the illusion -
Suprisingly growing every hour.
With every moment you paint a picture
In places blurred and others more bright.
The artist of the natural man-
To be for them a golden light.
The Rescue of a Princess by Courtney
The woods were thick,
The briers prickly,
For never did I know I'd pick
To run into such a history.
For after much of wandering,
I nearby found a castle,
Guarded by a creature, fire breathing,
To pass would be a hassle.
But my will to fight began to climb,
For adventure roused within my soul.
Yet I waited for the unknown time,
My luck would take it's deadly toll.
Suprisingly the fight was won!
I slew the dragon's filthy heart.
And through the castle I began to run,
Not knowing the life my search would start.
In a chamber far above
I found the sleeping maiden fair!
I could not contain my passionate love
For her sky-blue eyes and golden hair.
But there she lay,
Delicate hands as cold as stone.
Years and years she must have stayed
In the tallest tower, sleeping alone.
I never thought her dead!
She too much a beauty!
But her frozen body lye still in bed,
Her rescue now my duty.
A tear came to my saddened eye.
I leaned to kiss the sleeping dame.
If it were, I hoped to die!
And sleep beside her lovely frame.
But came a voice so small and sweet,
I could barely even hear.
"Nothing more you need defeat,
You've rescued me my dear!"
Okay, Disclaimer: that last one was assigned! Believe me, I can't stand all that mushy gushy Romeo stuff! Yuck! Don't even get me started on Romeo! He's such a dipwad! See! I have no life! I vent over Shakespeare's characters instead of real people and situations!
ANYWAY! This is my way of putting myself out there and...not being scared to!
Forgotten and Lovely World by Courtney
Aw, what a wonder is the world!
For this is my beloved home!
To look upon thy rolling hills,
To recieve in solice and to be alone!
There sings the nightingale,
And there blooms the flower!
Time for you stands strangely still
Yet, tis the illusion -
Suprisingly growing every hour.
With every moment you paint a picture
In places blurred and others more bright.
The artist of the natural man-
To be for them a golden light.
The Rescue of a Princess by Courtney
The woods were thick,
The briers prickly,
For never did I know I'd pick
To run into such a history.
For after much of wandering,
I nearby found a castle,
Guarded by a creature, fire breathing,
To pass would be a hassle.
But my will to fight began to climb,
For adventure roused within my soul.
Yet I waited for the unknown time,
My luck would take it's deadly toll.
Suprisingly the fight was won!
I slew the dragon's filthy heart.
And through the castle I began to run,
Not knowing the life my search would start.
In a chamber far above
I found the sleeping maiden fair!
I could not contain my passionate love
For her sky-blue eyes and golden hair.
But there she lay,
Delicate hands as cold as stone.
Years and years she must have stayed
In the tallest tower, sleeping alone.
I never thought her dead!
She too much a beauty!
But her frozen body lye still in bed,
Her rescue now my duty.
A tear came to my saddened eye.
I leaned to kiss the sleeping dame.
If it were, I hoped to die!
And sleep beside her lovely frame.
But came a voice so small and sweet,
I could barely even hear.
"Nothing more you need defeat,
You've rescued me my dear!"
Okay, Disclaimer: that last one was assigned! Believe me, I can't stand all that mushy gushy Romeo stuff! Yuck! Don't even get me started on Romeo! He's such a dipwad! See! I have no life! I vent over Shakespeare's characters instead of real people and situations!
ANYWAY! This is my way of putting myself out there and...not being scared to!
My Update!
Hello.... so, everyone must really hate me cause I haven't been on this thing since February. But to be fair I've been pretty busy! School really hit down hard third quarter and continued into fourth. My AP test was... interesting. I swear, I lost weight in the few weeks before the test cause all I did was study! And even after the test I didn't feel like I did very well! Ah well. It's all over now!
I've also had Orchestra both at school and RMO. School Orchestra has had Orchestra Tour to New York, region and state festivals, and our annual Orchestra banquet. RMO... not very exciting. Our last concert (well the last one I went to) was the Concerto Night. *snore, snore, snore!* I wasn't able to make it to the last one because I was at Girl's State.
Dating has been good! I've now been on a total of nine dates all together. Since Sweethearts though... there was seeing 'Singing in the Rain' with Jordan, Morp with Austin, Homemade Pizza with Colton, a movie with Joe, the Spontaneous Dance with Colton, and then this last week I went hiking with Joe. So the dating... it's healthy... that's all I can say.
But above all, the best thing I've done for the past few months is going to Girl's State! I loved it! I'm normally really shy around people I don't really know but I was put with 27 girls from all over Utah -hadn't seen one in my life!- and the very first night of being there we stayed up till midnight and suprisingly I did a lot of the talking and was the center of attention a lot of the time! After spending a week with those girls I learned that I didn't have to live up to a level of expectation to talk to someone or be their friend, but that by being myself -my own embarassing, loud, ...and sometimes eccentric self- I am can serve another as an equal human being with no selfish expectations. And I can count on others to think likewise. I think we get so confused in this world! So caught up in our natual human emotions of jealousy, hatred, and even love that we forget to be the person God intended us to be!
Another thing I learned at Girl's State was what it really ment to be patriotic! I mean I thought I was! I love our country! But now I have open eyes to the amazing liberties our ancestors fought for, that people in other corners of the world are STILL fighting for! And sadly, there are many in this noble country that cease to have the faith and devotion to America that I have gained a new appreciation for! It's like a disease that has affected the mind set of many of America's population! There is not enough respect and gratitude in this country at the present moment toward those men who sacrficed lives, time, families, and everything they had for what our country stands for!
So yah! Girl's State was AMAZING!! For all you younger girls: After Junior year apply to go! You will love it! It was one of the most memorable weeks of my life! Graduation was terrible though! I told myself I wasn't going to cry and of course every picture Grandma Lewis took of me proved me wrong! But I loved all the girls in my city, and I still keep in touch with a lot of them! They're some of my best friends!
Anyway, this is a very long post! But like I've said I haven't been here for a while! I'll try to keep up, but it's gets really hard sometimes so cut some slack and keep loving me! I've got to make sure I have all my cross country stuff ready for tomorrow morning so... TTFN! -tah tah for now!-
I've also had Orchestra both at school and RMO. School Orchestra has had Orchestra Tour to New York, region and state festivals, and our annual Orchestra banquet. RMO... not very exciting. Our last concert (well the last one I went to) was the Concerto Night. *snore, snore, snore!* I wasn't able to make it to the last one because I was at Girl's State.
Dating has been good! I've now been on a total of nine dates all together. Since Sweethearts though... there was seeing 'Singing in the Rain' with Jordan, Morp with Austin, Homemade Pizza with Colton, a movie with Joe, the Spontaneous Dance with Colton, and then this last week I went hiking with Joe. So the dating... it's healthy... that's all I can say.
But above all, the best thing I've done for the past few months is going to Girl's State! I loved it! I'm normally really shy around people I don't really know but I was put with 27 girls from all over Utah -hadn't seen one in my life!- and the very first night of being there we stayed up till midnight and suprisingly I did a lot of the talking and was the center of attention a lot of the time! After spending a week with those girls I learned that I didn't have to live up to a level of expectation to talk to someone or be their friend, but that by being myself -my own embarassing, loud, ...and sometimes eccentric self- I am can serve another as an equal human being with no selfish expectations. And I can count on others to think likewise. I think we get so confused in this world! So caught up in our natual human emotions of jealousy, hatred, and even love that we forget to be the person God intended us to be!
Another thing I learned at Girl's State was what it really ment to be patriotic! I mean I thought I was! I love our country! But now I have open eyes to the amazing liberties our ancestors fought for, that people in other corners of the world are STILL fighting for! And sadly, there are many in this noble country that cease to have the faith and devotion to America that I have gained a new appreciation for! It's like a disease that has affected the mind set of many of America's population! There is not enough respect and gratitude in this country at the present moment toward those men who sacrficed lives, time, families, and everything they had for what our country stands for!
So yah! Girl's State was AMAZING!! For all you younger girls: After Junior year apply to go! You will love it! It was one of the most memorable weeks of my life! Graduation was terrible though! I told myself I wasn't going to cry and of course every picture Grandma Lewis took of me proved me wrong! But I loved all the girls in my city, and I still keep in touch with a lot of them! They're some of my best friends!
Anyway, this is a very long post! But like I've said I haven't been here for a while! I'll try to keep up, but it's gets really hard sometimes so cut some slack and keep loving me! I've got to make sure I have all my cross country stuff ready for tomorrow morning so... TTFN! -tah tah for now!-
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